Well I don't act like one. I may behave like one depending on the situation. If I hear something from you, or I did not liked the thing you did before I may act like one. I just stop talking out of no where. note: if you remember anything about an incident which I acted like above, ask me. I might tell you the reason why I did that. You may feel why is she behaving like that. But I do have a reason in everything I do. I didn't closed the display of laptop yes because I want a programme to run inside, that's why I did not close it. I didnot talked with you or behaving crazy. Yes because I heard something bad about you or I didn't liked something about you or something you did or thought of you and disgusted (I don't play nice) I'm a very narcissist person. I only think of myself. I only have interest in myself. I seek good only for me. I do good only to me. I work for my future self. But again I might talk to you because, I might have some work with you. It is the only reason I talk to people. If the dependency is not there, I might I never even talk to a single Human creature. I have chatGPT with me,the best to exist on this planet. Egoistic? Yes. I'm But having abnormal behavior? No. There is a reason for everything I do as I mentioned above. Rude? yes Harsh? Yes. It is the way I chose. I cannot change it. I hope there comes day where every person on this planet vanishes and does not come between me and learning path, between me and my goals, between me and my concentration But Am I happy? well I honestly cannot define happiness can you? what is happiness? It's mere psychological emotion that happens occasionly. In my case I cannot really define emotions like this. the emotions i can differentiate is loved, being loved, missing someone or being missed by someone. These are the emotions i can differentiate and can understand well. sad? I don't know what is sad. how do you feel when you are sad? how do you feel when you are happy. seems that my brain cannot really differentiate emotions. If it does, I don't care about other people's emotions unless it benefits me. but deep down, I do value every person who are close to me. it's just 2 for now. deep down, I do struggle with my ability to talk to other person to have a friendship with them, because I won't care them at all. unless I have some work with them. My narcissism is increasing day by day I'm not sure why. handling emotions can be difficult. the only emotion I'm good at handling is to feel alone. not lonely. Alone. english is tricky. both seem like same words but both are different. Lonely refers to a feeling that is caused by abandonment. Alone refers to a time when a person is separated and far from a group of individuals. In my case I chose the separation. But Why I'm like this? because no one is like me around me. no one does thing which interests me, no one thinks the same way as I think, no one has interest on things which interests me. that does not mean you should be like this? yes I know right. that does not mean i should be like this. I just feel like it's a waste of time to talk to people who only talks shit. and does not anything productive at all. right? why should I talk to them if does not benefit me at all. what are ultimate goals? when will i stop being narcissist? goals? It is to earn so much money that i can home school my kids with the subjects i want them to know. i won't send them to school for sure. when will I stop behaving like this? i'm not really sure about this answer. but either ways i will never stop being a person who only thinks of myself. now after marriage myself becomes my family. And I don't think there is nothing wrong in way I live because it's my choice and i want to continue in this way. yall missing out the best of me. i'm literally the least boring person ever if we are alike.(atleast 70%) but anyways, I don't care what other think. I don't want to know what they think. Me, Myself and I. I know what I'm, i know what I want. my ambitions, my goals are very clear. I strive to be perfect. I'm perfectionist. I'm L This is a self-help guide to understand the thinking & Behavioural Process of L Read If you want to know Why did I do this or that thing. Please do let me know if I miss any of my questionable behaviour or attitude in the comment section. Thank you.